Welcome

Hi! My name is Kelly and I am writing this post to tell you a bit about my story and introduce you to my new blog Regenerative Roots. My mission for the past 10+ years has been to dive head on with experimentation on different ways live my life with a main goal of building resilient vitality of mind body and spirit. For most of my life I never felt comfortable in my own skin, in a way that seemed to go beyond your normal growing pains of being a dorky teenager during an ever growing digital age. I have vivid memories of feeling like my skin didn’t know how to properly house my bones, that everything hurt. As I got older it always seemed like it took way more effort to carry out normal tasks than those around me. My pain would bounce around from daily headaches and neck pain, to hip and knee pain where when I was in college there was a year that I could barley walk it hurt so much.

Growing up I was always a pretty dark child, had an affinity to depressive new age rock and often questioned the point of this thing we called life. I’ve always wondered where this darkness came from as I could never really blame the nurture portion of the age old equation. So maybe I was just made that way? That’s the narrative I got as a young adult at the doctors. I heard a lot of “Sometimes people have pain, you are going to have to live with it.” Or “It’s anxiety, you need to relax. Stop focusing on it.”  Medication was often brought up in my teenage years for depression and anxiety. I did try it for a bit but pretty quickly intuitively knew that was not the right course for me. My later teenage years to young 20’s consisted of a lot of self medication. I felt normal when the drinks started to flow and I could accomplish anything while keeping my weight down on adderal. I was going to push my way through life and make my body bend to my demands, and it was working. . . Until around 25 when it didn’t. My years of lack of sleep and liver abuse had worn me out. My serotonin and dopamine were tanked and  every second of the day I was just waiting for a moment that I could go take a nap. I hated my life. I hated my body. I hated me and I either needed to find another way to live or just call it quits. Thankfully in this instance, I tend to be relatively prideful and I was adamant that I could fix my life.

So here comes the point of the blog. I have tried a million things on my quest for a more energetic, vibrant and happy life. I have done things that have brought me great success and others that were dead ends to maybe even offshoots that shot me out 2 miles back. This is my space to put out into the world my experiences so that others can learn about different approaches and maybe other ideologies they would have never considered. Through all of this I do believe everyones life path has to be their own but we can always gain wisdom from those around us.